it's the horrible, horrible feeling of being not good enough. not good enough essay, not good enough looks, not good enough this, not good enough that, and the list of insecurities goes on and on and on. i used to feel like this in secondary school and then i thought i matured.
insecurity is psychological and i used to believe that everybody is good enough for something and now i believe otherwise. it must be the time of the month where i get emotional and grumpy and horrid.
it so fucking annoying this feeling of insecurity. i hate it, i hate it so much. i hate it so much. im never good enough for any fucking thing.
i want to make it. i really do. i want to do something decent, isn't it high time for that?
i want to do something to be proud of, i want to do something my parents will be happy about. i want, i want, i want.
i am feeling horribly discouraged and the people in the house are not helping. it's even more annoying that i cannot enunciate my thoughts to the people who want to help. no it's not just that, it isn't. and i know you think im crying over something ridiculous and stupid when you say that im over reacting.
i hate everybody now who tries to speak to me and tell me im being stupid.
evidently im not being matured about it or taking it with good measure by complaining and saying such things. but it's been too fucking long. i think it's high time i let out how i feel so don't fucking tell me how i should or shouldn't feel. stop trying to make it better because you're tone is horrid and not at all supportive and caring. please get out of my head.
can i please be intelligent, witty, gorgeous and have every other perfect gift please?
pms is such a fucking chore.
pardon me for the language and not being a lady.
i made believe @ 4/16/2007 03:29:00 PM
