everybody's doing it and i'm very bored. so here goes.
2.0.0.6
a year of endings and beginnings. the first three months were pretty hard post 2005. i let myself think i was lousy and alone. a failed attempt at my dream cos i didn't try hard enough, but what i do now isn't all tht bad. and through all the bad times i found love :D the boy who cared enough to pull me out of my self thought misery. i also found great friends that i thought didn't care all that much.
there was the chingay in feb that brought the perf arts courses all together. i dreaded it very much, but many good things came out of that :)
then year 1 ended and the holidays begun. took a very short and cheap trip to bintan and i've been dying to go back there ever since. it was an awesome trip bringing closure to every bad feeling i had.
it was only during june that the boy finally asked me out on a date. haha, yes finally. cos it was horrible not knowing for months how he felt. but the wait was worth it :D
year 2 began in july after a three and a half month break and i wasn't entirely happy about where i was. i was full of regret because i thought if i had pushed myself harder before i would have been where i wanted to be. then i learnt to live with it since the course is not all that bad. it's great actually, except for a certain lecturer who makes it all seem awful. but i really have learnt to live with it.
it was a bad start to august when mummy called from taiwan. it is never good news when mummy calls. granddad passed away and the parents flew back here. the very next night a call came in bringing news of the death of a close family friend. that whole week i was afraid. afraid of how fragile life is. we saw uncle david almost every weekend when we were young. then they moved to clementi and we saw less of each other. he was a funny man, always making us laugh. it feels so strange whenever i think that i'll never see him again. same goes to my grandfather, not being able to see him in his chair this chinese new year. the family was shaken, but strong. i can only imagine my parents. my mum, losing her dad and one of the bestest friend she ever had. death lingered on that week and it ended when the luohan died. it was strange cos it was fine before and strange when it became hyper the night before it died. that month i felt alot and thought alot. i want never to take advantage of family and friends and to cherish every moment they walk the earth.
well august came and went. then it was my 18th birthday. my sneaky bf and friends tgther with the 2 sisters planned a great surprise party. sentosa and a bbq the day before my party and the wonderful party thrown by them the next day. the one where i lost a newly manicured toenail :) it was definitely the best birthday ever :D
i began my christmas countdown as well tht month. i felt christmasy the next month. which was bad. because it was the end of sem1 and assignments and stf were due. feeling christmasy just threw me off course and straight into december. but i pulled through and finished up what i was supposed to do. sometimes looking ahead just ain't right.
then christmas came and went and so did new years. it was a great year two zero o six. i hope oseven will be just as great or even better :D
here's to a great two.zero.o.seven.
i made believe @ 1/02/2007 03:03:00 PM
