Funny how I find myself having so many personalities I'm now confused about who I am, what I am. I try to find one and stay at that, but somehow I seem to lose it. My perception changes a tad too frequently.
I love the world, I hate the world. So does everybody else.
It's strange how I yearn to let loose and go wild, but yet I pull back because I am afraid of regret, of what people might think, of the future. Because I'm afraid to do so many things I only end up regretting not doing them.
Fear. That's right. I fear too easily.
I wish I were more adventurous. I wish I could bring myself to do crazy things.
I wish I could find me.
But you see, I'm someone who cannot do things on her own. I need somebody to show me the way, to lead me.
Come out, come out whoever you areee.
On an entirely different note, I am exhausted! Singaporeans get their progress package money and first thing they do, they spend. Work was crazy today. The people just kept coming, one group after another. I was tired, cranky and pissed because of assholish customers, but I still managed to say 'HI, evening! What can I get for you today?' with a BIG smile.
And then I realised how hypocrisy came about.
Pfft.
The end.Fullstop.Finish.Over.That's it.Period.
i made believe @ 5/02/2006 02:22:00 AM
