When work gets between me and the family-
I'd choose the family more than anything else of course, well unless I learn to say no.
Prioritise, daddy says.
I knw. I knw wht is important. Do they not know how much I yearn for them when they're not around?
It's been 4 months since we last got together as a family during Christmas and another 2 after they all leave, again.
I have been looking forward to this weekend the day they all left.
But when am I going to stand up and learn to say no?
And when am I going to get a backbone of my own?
I want to say no, but somehow I can't help but think I'm making others unhappy.
It's so hard to please everybody.
Now how about being happy myself?
It's not about feeling left out in the family. It's about how long I waited and how much I missed them. It's about how many days spent in this fucking empty house when they're not around. How much I yearn for the house to be filled with mummy's nagging, daddy's singing, samantha's bimboticness and bokok's eye-rolling exercise again all at once. And yet I'll only be home one night to hear and see all that again. This is so unfair.
FUCKING UNFAIR, I SAY!
HMPh.
This is so frustrating!
URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i made believe @ 4/12/2006 04:08:00 PM
