I feel so damn guilty. I could've helped the boy. Why in the world did I hesitate?? I could've at least done something. How could I let that perv get away with it?! It's because of sickos like him that ruin some people's life. It's no use talking shit now because there's nothing left to do. I was on that bus for a reason. I managed to catch up with the bus for a reason. I was meant to sit in front of them for a reason. How come I didn't do anything? I wanted so much to, but I just didn't. WHY?
I pray the boy is alright. I pray so hard for him. He must be traumatised. I pray that he tells his parents.
Now I understand fully how one person's action can affect the other, cause and effect.
I know it's no use reproaching myself now, but just I can't help but feel I'm the most horrible person alive. No, that disgusting man is. The boy's so young, plus he's just a boy! It must be so hard on him. The look on his face. He was afraid. He was frightened.
I could have, but I didn't. I am such a coward. I didn't have the courage to go up to the boy to ask him if anything really happened. I didn't have the courage to turn and look. I didn't have the courage to stop it from happening.
What that man did was awful and disgusting. The boy might have been just one of his many victims and by not doing anything, I have ruined not just the boy's life, but also the many other victims he is going to lay his hands on. Although I didn't exactly see what the man did, but just from that one glance, I dare not imagine further. Just thinking back on that one glance, I thought wasn't true, I am utterly disgusted.
But I knew when I saw the boy get up from his seat and try to go downstairs. I knew when he turned and looked at that disgusting man with such fear in his eyes. I knew when he alighted at the same stop as me and ran home just as his feet touched the ground. I knew something awful had happened. I knew what I saw was indeed true.
yes, he alighted at the bloody same stop as me. I was standing right beside him. I couldn't bring myself to ask him. I.. I just couldn't. Why? BECAUSE I'M A FUCKING COWARD.
I HOPE THAT MAN GETS HIS DESERTS. I HOPE HE GETS SENT TO JAIL AND HAVE 999999999999999999999999999999999999 STROKES OF THE ROTTAN, THEN HE WILL NOT BE ABLE TO SIT ON HIS ASS FOR THE REST OF HIS DISGUSTING LIFE. HE SHOULD GET THE SAME NUMBER OF STROKES ON HIS HANDS AS WELL SO THAT HE WILL NEVER LAY HANDS ON AN INNOCENT YOUNG KID EVER AGAIN. NOT EVEN HIS OWN, SHOULD HE EVER HAVE ONE.
i made believe @ 7/26/2005 11:06:00 PM
