WeeEeEe` Really short day today. I'm having a throbbing headache right now. Woke up this morning and I could barely open my eyes. Thought of skipping school but realised mummy wasn't here, so she couldnt write letter for me. Also, I skipped school so many times this term. Damn, I miss mumsy and daddy. =( I can't wait for Sept. They'll be coming back then. But then again, I won't be able to spend much time with them 'cos I'll be spending more time with my books. *sigh* Lessons were so-so today. Had 2 free MT periods. Seow laoshi was sooo nice!! She congratulated me for getting my B3. hees=) She told me that I'd have to still take Chinese in JC, but i told her I didn't wanna go there. She then asked where I wanted to go. I told her it was either Lasalle or Poly. Then, she discouraged me from doing so. Sx and jo advised me against it too after that. Hmm, that really got me thinking. What if I don't make it? What am I 'sposed to do? But haven't Mummy and daddy and my 2 sisters been telling me to follow my heart and do what I like to do? Seriously, I'm having second thoughts. All those dreams bout being famous and becoming a star. Will they come true? But the question really is, can I make them come true? Damn, I really don't have many talents. Hmm, so many 'what ifs' are flying around in my head. What should I do? I'm not getting much support from my friends. So that's kinda discouraging. Was really very dscouraged just now. But then again, they're trying to tell me it's gonna be difficult. Yeah. It's gonna. In the beginning that is. Damn. They've really got me thinking. Blehs.
I HATE thinking. It's hard. Now my headache's getting worse. So anyway, went to Sumo to eat after school. It was a quick lunch. Cos sx and jo had to rush back for oral. So I reached home at 2. Watched this FAME thingy on Channel i and then went to sleep. Surprisingly an Asian won that American singing competition. You know how Asians are always being discriminated in the US? yeah. That's why I've always wanted to be born an Ang moh, if not a eurasian or something. Anything but Asian. Because I feel that Asians have much lesser chance in alot of things. Especially in the acting industry. Hmm, woke up at bout 5 and then went to bathe. Head was already throbbing then. Yup, it's time to start studying. Started last night and I was so proud of myself. That was a great feeling. Uh huh. Yes it was. Gonna start at 8. wee~
I'm tired. Tired of bitching around. It's time to stop. Gonna be neutral from now on. Cos in the world of bitching, friends can start backstabbing each other. It's a fierce world out there. Hell yea it is. Gotta learn from Jialing and Weiling. Yup. Keep my comments to myself. High time I did that. Friends may just start bitching bout you and you won't know it. It just hits you like that. Someone so close, someone you call 'friend'. Someone you trust. It may be in the past. But you never knew it. Cos you've always thought of her as the perfect friend anyone could have. But sometimes, reality bites. The truth always hurts. yeah, it does.. It hurts like hell. It's just as hard as realizing that your boyfriend cheated on you. It's the real world girl. Time to wake up and see that the world is not all peachy nice. It's a difficult world I've got to face and this is only the beginning. I've got a long life ahead of me and there'll be many more things I'll learn and discover. Yup. This is just the beginning.....
i made believe @ 8/13/2004 06:25:00 PM
