ahh..lala..quarrelled with him last nite..he's soooo irrinoying!!..keep saying he cant handle things n he's so tired blablabla..n when i told him bout telling mi whether he was ging to come anot he tells mi bout needing a social life!..gawd..i was so fucking irritated i told him if he couldn't blance his studies bball n mi..den gif smth up..or jus put it off..since it wun be bball...it'll be mi ryte?..jus put off the relationship for awhile la..maybe til after the Os..but still?!?..its so damn long..i mean..he's worrying bout everything..blablabla..ahh..wadever la..den he keep saying bout how much he's trying to be perfect..perfect bf n all..told him no one is perfect..he jus kept going on bout it...aHHHh..tho' i tell him i dun mind him spending less time with mi..but i DO mind!..i DO mind alot alot alot!!..ahhhhhh..its so terrible to b missing him..and he doesnt like talking on the fone jus cos his parents will give him that sneeky look n he doesnt like it..SO? my fault isit? ahh...den he say until he gave alot into this relationship..as if i didn't..ahhh..i've been keeping quiet bout everything!..i jus refuse to to tell him cos i dun wan him to feel bad..i try to swallow everything..but all the forcing it down was for nothing..cos i puked it all out ON HIM! ahhhhh..blablabla..when i was so irritated i told rh..n he suddenly jus burst out saying things that i didnt understand bout having someone hu loves mi n i live him beside me...i felt so bad..was he toking bout mi?..i dunoe..hAIz............ahhhh..im so damn fucking pissed....ahhhhhhhhhhh...didnt tok to him in school at all..!! didnt even wanna look at him!..ahhhhhhhhh..IRRINOYING! why he so like dat onE?..as if everything's bout him!..ahh..maybe if he jus cared bout how i felt for once..haiyahhh..!!! cannot take it ok..!!!!!!!!!!!!...ahh..he always say he'll try to spend more time with mi..blablabla...but he always do it for awhile den goes back to normal again..blablablaal.........ahhhhh..lallalllalalalla....IRRINOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...wadever la......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................lalalalallalala..
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i made believe @ 5/24/2004 06:30:00 PM
